To be indecisive is one of the many symptoms of not recognizing ones belief systems.
How often do I become confused, frozen, not able to say yes or no, not able to commit ...All because I have chosen to listen to multiple conflicting, contradicting beliefs at the same time, not allowing myself to recognize them and abandon them as unnecessary.
Constantly exchanging one belief for another until I fall down from spinning in my own dizziness.
Indecision, a gift, a pointer ... allowing me to see the trance of holding multiple beliefs at the same time.
Talk about productivity, if you are looking for recognizing beliefs, you've hit a jackpot.
When I look at my specific indecision, I am awarded with seeing not only 1 but multiple beliefs that have grabbed a hold of me.
Indecision, a bold, blatant gateway to fear, to belief, to freedom.
It may look indecisive in nature, but strangely bold in appearance. There is no pretending when one can not decide, the lack of decision stands out clearly in ones awareness, in ones gut and in ones actions to the world. There is no expression from ones truth ... in indecision one hides out in limbo ... finding safety from ones unnerving truth, caught in belief.
And in that indecision, the cost of relating, connecting to oneself and consequently the cost to relating to others is real-ness.
In a frozen state there is no lasting connection, the surface is cold and slippery ... every time one starts to connect, one slides from the surface ... there is nothing to grab onto or sink into ... the energy is scattered everywhere, providing only fleeting dispersed connection.
Indecision ... scattered, a blatant gateway ... it can be seen as a tool, a solid pointer to multiple fears and beliefs limiting ones ability to connect and relate.
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