More than a feeling, it builds structure.

This article was written to thank and acknowledge the Aspire foundation for their experiential workshops and community of lovely people.


Sometimes I wonder what is real.
It is when my mind is at war with my heart, that I start to question my process, whether I am being self indulgent, self absorbed to be on a path of self awareness.

But love is more than a feeling, it is a truth that my heart knows and feels, a truth that my body and cells know and feel, and that is what has become so evident to me. I asked for affirmation and my body speaks to me so kindly, demonstrating the power of being in ones truth.

It has not been until I started on this path of self discovery that I have been willing to look at what I have created for myself, my heart, my body, my mind. I was not willing to look at my health, as it was so painful to feel, so difficult to acknowledge, but so evident in my body. I did not think I had the energy to address what I needed to change.

What I did not realize was that by denying myself, by staying emotionally constricted, I was also foregoing my passion, my vital energy, my life. It is in the denial that the cost was truly being born.

I have spent years living constricted and years fighting for life but it is not until now that I feel a nourishment and an expansion in my body. This is due to the direct experience with various people in my life, the opportunity to belong to a community of people that chose to connect from the heart and the willingness to let go of beliefs that no longer fit.

I have begun the process of breaking down the structures that have had a strangle hold on my body, and re-create life within myself. This is so evident in my heart as well as in my body. Recently, my menstrual cycle has started again. For most people this would not be celebrated but for me, being post menopausal for over 2 years due to early menopause from my health conditions it speaks loudly to me. It shows my body is changing in many ways and it all represents an opening and expansion.

Yes, there is a war going on with my mind and my heart, but this shows me my heart has the upper hand. By following my truth, my cells feel the change, they are no longer being constricted, they are receiving and providing nourishment to my body and that is in direct correlation to how I feel.

This approach to life makes me feel nourished.

So when there is a war going on ... I must remember to feel what is real, and look and listen to my body, as it gives me guidance.

More than a feeling .... its what builds structure.